Romcon Was an Eye Opener…

Romcon was nothing like I expected, it was a whole different level of interaction.  It was the perfect place to share my sensual poetry book, Sanity Interrupted.  The book is very hard to categorize so getting women to read it has been a challenge. It is an emotional rollercoaster ride, filled with heartbreaking emotions that somehow turn into erotic fantasies.  When I started to write last summer, I knew that these words were going to be powerful but I had no idea to what degree it would change how women think about themselves.

I’ve always been good at articulating raw feelings that are indefinable.  I met women that said I put on paper exactly the things they were thinking.  My writing is fearless; it is so easy to spill my guts when I’m all alone in front of a computer.  I used the character as a stepping stone.  The poems started in my head and heart, they were in part my emotions but I allowed the heroine to take all the risks.  For me, it was a personal journey into my own dark places and the most amazing result was that in the end, when it was all said and done I found myself out in the bright sunshine once again.  

I never thought that writing these things down for the world to read would start a kind of sexual reawakening for other women who are around my age.  In between events and sometimes during them I was able to chat with women who had similar emotions.  I had a woman ask me if sex could be fun.  I actually filled up because I knew how confused she was. I told her exactly what I have learned very recently. Yes, sexuality can be fun and it is a very big part of who we are.  It is healthy to take joy in being close to another human being. I wish our mothers hadn’t been so afraid to tell us that. Then again, maybe we need to come into this knowledge when we are mature enough to handle it. 

I spoke more freely with these strangers than I do with my own friends.  I have no idea why but it just happened at a little event called Romcon.  I see now that it is good to talk about what confuses us.  You may not have the conversation with someone else but you all need to have it with yourselves.  My book is a great starting place. 

This weekend I found that I am not alone.  We are all sisters, we need to let our guard down and talk more or we all might have our sanity interrupted.